so, i said in this post that maybe i'll move journals after . well actually im pretty sure i've been going on and on about it in my past entries. and just forgot about it. hahaha. i created the journal like, two, three months ago. summer is coming to a close so-- it's time, maybe? i've out grown kuroi_shin in both name and content. my profile til now is still under construction but maybe that's because im just too lazy. (ah, not maybe. reaally.)

hahaha. okay . so friends, lovers and lj-men/women. i'll be adding those who matter over at the still under construction journal.

moved to thistealistoxic .


it was fun. :]

were you drinking at eight in the morning.

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if you dont know how to write, then you shouldnt write at all .

i've graduated.

wow. i don't exactly know what i'll do now. it's summer and wow. i'm bored out of my wits. after march 25, i'll be buried under countless activities up until may.

i've graduated.

and we had the ball last night. it was all sorts of awesome. with the eating, dancing, bubble blowing, hugging, laughing, cam whoring and generally making asses out of ourselves. but there was one thing i wish i could've done. or at least done better. but hey ho, it's already passed so there's nothing i can do. goldilocks was right, i will eventually regret things-- not because of what i did, but what i did not do. the opportunity was there. oh well.

i've graduated.

and i'm still confused. what should i do now?

i've graduated.

still, i'm drinking milk and eating doughnuts in front of the laptop, barely moving an inch or two.

recycle bin was right.

ahh. i am so bored. there's nothing more to do. it's only 9 in the evening. i am so bored.


hmm. okay since i am bored and this is my blog, then i am going to write about the different, more boring aspects of my life! woo hoo!

school; is boring . there's nothing else to do. but you know, to wait for our graduation. i'm going to miss that residence of eleven years, the teachers and the familiarity of it all. from now on it's the uni life, independence, irresponsibility and what have you. i can't say i'm not the least bit worried but yeah, come what may.

something else; is indescribable. i feel like i'm at the point where i want to move forward and go for the proverbial 'goal' or just give up and leave things as it is. i don't know. it's like testing the temperature of water. put a hand or even just a finger in so that there's minimal damage to your body if the water is too hot or too cold. then, we can always just change the temperature. but here, i don't know if i can just test the temperature and suffer minimal or no damage.

but thing is, i want to test the waters. i don't really care if my hand or my whole arm gets burnt or frostbitten.

some other thing; it's odd. how the silence gets to me now. it's strange and unnerving. i was used to it. but now i'm not. does this mean my inter-personal skills arent as 'markedly low' as what that test states?


edit @22:14 pm:
umm. i got side tracked. went on facebook and pet society-ed.

hahahahaha.

friends, lovers and countrymen.

hell week has ended baby!! and in two weeks time i will be graduating! i'm partly happy and partly sad. because BABY i am GRADUATING. and then the part where i'll miss my friends and some of my teachers and i will miss the school where i've resided for the past eleven years. O:

baby i've got a spankin new laptop! Acer's Aspire 2930. OOHHH. yeahh man! hahaha. my god. it has been like a barrage of good things here and there. hahah. i haven't been here so long. and maybe i'll be relocating after grad. who knows. :))

anyway, tomorrow's the start of bumming around and practicing for graduation rites. WOOHOO. also, remeniscing about highschool and st.scho in generaaalll. :]

okay. HAPPYYY. :] GOOD NIGHT y'all.

my hearts about to burst into a thousand pieces. so it must be true.

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DO NOT WANT

this and that. hers or yours. or both. i dont want any of it so.


give it up.

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KNOW

what to do.

i did not ask for any of this to happen. do not say it is my responsibility.

what i want is to graduate ALREADY and have FUN.

and no, i don't think that you people are in my idea of FUN.

during math wherein we take up logarithms. myra read to me her oh-so-wunderful-book.

when i say

jump?

do you say

how high?

-

or was it that you used to but now you don't.

not now. not ever since.

-

wunderful book i say.

words will bleed on words

feelings upon emotions

like watercolor into paper

the end starts

where

the start ends

because

there is no remedy

for love

but to love more

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cred; H.D.T

cont;

if you are a terrorist.

then i am a prisoner, i said.

she smiles knowingly.

i know.

how, i ask.

i just do.